Venturing far away Breaking away from the threads Entangled in lies and madness Between ancient rock and sediment Lies the calm yet raging waters The memories returning A feeling of nostalgia An embodiment of self dialogue Or genuine entities of human contact Yet both will sustain As another hidden chapter Carved into the granite Obscured by overgrown fern Stalked in the dark midst By the nightly drones Gazing below as an audience Yet blind witnesses To the freshly sown scars Inflicted by the shadows From the faraway Fabricated garden The dreams retell That fateful night When I was not alone Where these stories are heard Every illicit thought Brought to the incandescence Of the incinerating wood Which glows in the afterdark The next dawn approaches Descending upon the banks Of the raging tides The rite of passage Commences in desire And a moment of Clarity (Chorus) Drifting down the waterside Where the sins are cauterized An experience of a lifetime Purged by the ultraviolet light The vestiges of romance And the ghosts of hatred Succumb to the rays In peaceful bliss You have heard me And you have answered To forbidden questions Which nobody dares ask I finally obtained a sense of closure Now I can vanish Fulfilled without reluctance I can proceed in obscurity Never looking behind (Chorus) Drifting down the waterside Where the sins are cauterized An experience of a lifetime Purged by the ultraviolet light

Searching for a new escape beyond mortal lust From her lasting torment never able to heal With various substances of euphoria Which once saturated the fragile mind To erase her soft touch A memory cast as chains None of these will satisfy Such jaded addictions Trapped in this eternal vortex of regret Waiting for my saving grace Praying to a god of self-righteous futility Thus I am abandoned to suffer Wishing for the days of innocence Ruined by her delusions of morality While I became her constant victim I was just a moment's gratification Searching for a new escape from the shadows Unable to run from memories of her For various substances of euphoria Could never rewrite the past carved in stone To erase her soft touch A memory cast as chains None of these will satisfy Such jaded addictions Trapped in this eternal vortex of regret Waiting for my saving grace Praying to a god of self-righteous futility Yet by irony, my wish was granted One morning, I awake in a dark cell Naked, all four limbs shackled to the floor the withdrawal of my cravings churn my insides, a foreshadowing of my salvation 5 predators, masters of this cell have arrived Their presence towers my pitiful form Without any power, I am at their mercy With no other option, I yield myself They grab my neck and slam my face to the ground While one of the guards undresses Unable to comprehend anymore my orifice is filled with a new sensation Aphrodisiacs fill my brain with a new craving I become a repository of their seed I beg for them to cease this farce For their manhood towers over mine To silence the moans and the cries, I am forced to swallow their flesh Forcing my throat with such pressure All they hear now…. All they hear now is the soft whimper Of my tonsils and esophagus I have become their mere tool Purposed for their satisfaction Amidst the chaos of my body's defloration I no longer crave for her to please me anymore Despite seeing her on the other side of the bars She no longer is able to reach me I am guilty to have finally found A higher form of pleasure I formally submit my body and soul To the five angels who ravaged me My insides yearn for a newfound drug Now with a smile, I beg for more I have found the days of innocence Liberated from her delusions of morality My mind has been forever corrupted For I can experience eternal gratification I have found a new escape from her grasp All she can do is helplessly observe For various substances of euphoria Could never surmount to this feeling of pure bliss She helplessly cries my name Tears falling down her face For I am no longer hers I am now their prey

Biological warfare Or the inevitability Of human fragility Highlighted at this moment By human ignorance fueled by the illusion of ancient freedoms or moral delusions (Chorus 1) The world that we knew That we both love and hate is about to end We are fulfilled with regret We grieve in bliss The world that we knew That we both love and hate is about to end we are therefore fulfilled with regret This is the only time to scale the waterfall And witness from above The slow decay of society At its end, the forest persists underneath its shadow The ground remains untouched with the fallen bark and leaves chorus(1) The unpaved winding trail cleared from the ice overlooking the canyon below behind the branches at the verge of the end, the natural order reclaims The artifical wastelands frozen in perpetuity I regret refusing to continue the path proceeds infinite Unbounded by human charters For I waited for you to join me in this journey (Chorus 2) Hold my hand and come with me to the summit and witness the inevitable collapse of human civilization Wishing you were here with me at the summit witnessing The final chapter of Humanity’s pointless struggle

Submit to the ancient wrath prophesied in scripture In fire and brimstone, I purge the world of sin Present your soul, desecrated by corruption In flames from deep within, you are forced dig your grave And then I bury you, in the place in which you lay I am the king of kings I am the lord of lords till the day you die you exalt my name with praise or you shall meet me face to face while I make your flesh decay Execute you slowly at the gates with utter grace A world, thriving with deception and injustice, I rectify with the blade of-eternal judgment In a life filled to the brim with hollow vanity I neutralize with ripping of your heart Your blood shall rectify with the staining of this farce I am the king of kings I am the lord of lords till the day you die you exalt my name with praise or you shall meet me face to face while I make your flesh decay Execute you slowly at the gates with utter grace Beg for mercy Before I further brutalize mankind and reclaim that which is mine For Sanity, you shall incur my divine wrath For Liberty, you shall incur my divine wrath For Justice, you shall Incur my divine wrath laceration of the flesh degradation of morality I once said Let there be light Now, I say let there be bloodshed I am the alpha and the omega Worshipped since inception I withstand the test of time I am the giver of life I am the taker of life I have seen the state of this world And I writhe in disgust Equivalent to all your suffering combined And the sight of blood fills my lust To me you are nothing, nothing but dust You molested my child As he died in the cross Weaponized morality for your own personal gain this is the final fucking straw You are an utter failure Slated to rot in filth and piss You were thus created to be manipulated

Abandoned, broken in pain Left to suffer this dreadful life In solitude, I feel hatred All I can do is accept my fate She comes to me Pretending to be The cure to my disease My savior from demise (chorus) Yet her unwavering thirst to satisfy her own self righteousness inflicts more suffering She imposes her own false perception Therefore depriving my right to grieve While she molests with empathy In attempt to indoctrinate With passion, the broken dogma Of the institution of failure Controlled by the powers that be Unable to shed tears She insults my torment She ridicules the pain With despicable ignorance (chorus) Yet her unwavering thirst to satisfy her own self righteousness inflicts more suffering She imposes her own false perception Therefore depriving my right to grieve While she molests with empathy (solo) I have been claimed As her unwilling victim Her persistence constantly torments me She forces me to believe In her illusion of kindness Molesting me with empathy While she drains my soul And my means of dignity Emotionally forcing My dependence As I slowly fade away (breakdown) this ideology of morality Falters upon the cruelty Harbored by the forces Tethered to existence itself She has stripped almost everything My heart, soul and sense of compassion Destroyed in confusion But she has failed to eradicate The pain and the contempt The threshold breaks I satisfy my primal instinct As she has ripped my heart I rip her dress apart Forcing various opioids into her veins In forced pleasure, she convulses Impregnated and poisoned (5:25) She regurgitates digested organic produce Choking on her own bowels She is impregnated against her will Drowning in agony, unable to plead Now I force the reality That she experiences ultimate pleasure As she has denied me my humanity I now deny her the respite As I violate her being (chorus 2 - 6:00)) With my own empathy I broke her framework Her every belief Which she has embraced haunts her from the inside As the stillborn remains within the constant addiction sustains The ruin of her will As her tears soak the wooden floor the season comes and goes She craves the needle A face of numbness fills her eyes Yet she moans as I penetrate her Unable to beg for forgiveness One day I find her with a broken noose And a chair laying sideways Finding the way out of this madness She has miserably failed Dragging her by her neck I perpetuate her agony Yet without the drugs Her relapse spirals into a neverending vortex She softly touches her orifice Softly sobbing in confusion But she silently begs; Begging for what? I therefore cast my judgement

At the precipice of Human existence The shadows still haunt me Manifesting as echoes and voices Of regret and contempt The painful memories Fill my dreams In paralyzed nightmares (chorus) Despite being miles away I have never escaped I question the voyage And the meaning of its purpose For the woods Stand In a gridlike pattern Monocultured, polluted In ravaged sections As the substances of Pleasure and bliss Can only hold back the Voices that call within The shadows Of paradise That whisper ideas I cannot trust even myself (chorus) Despite being miles away I have never escaped I question the voyage And the meaning of its purpose For the woods Stand In a gridlike pattern Monocultured, polluted In ravaged sections As the granite meets The basalt lair of the dragon And the cascades flow through the gates of iron Staring into the colors Of the autumn leaves of Orange, red, green, Shaded with ice (solo) The numbness lingers Within these aged nerves Its beauty has gained A counterfeit feeling Where was the feeling Of seeing the outside world beyond the iron gates? Why have I grown Into utter indifference Perhaps, we were designed To consume in perpetuity This cherished humanity Became a source of despair Thus we are forever lost Feeling miles away from home (solo 2) (chorus) Despite being miles away I have never escaped I question the voyage And the meaning of its purpose For the woods Stand In a gridlike pattern Monocultured, polluted In ravaged sections As the granite meets The basalt lair of the dragon And the cascades flow through the gates of iron Staring into the colors Of the autumn leaves of Orange, red, green, Shaded with ice The maiden of death Appears before me Bringing unto me My salvation For the true journey lies ahead Beyond this artificial construct Acceptance and Complete Departure I shall now transcend

I remember those days In a foreign land Silenced, unable to speak these imprisoned thoughts Yet the imagination begins to wither away Torn between fantasy And this brave new reality All I can do is stare into The Riverside This is the graveyard Of my childhood dreams Alone I tread each day Forsaking all I once had To realize an old promise Yet the imagination begins to wither away Torn between fantasy And this brave new reality All I can do is stare into The Riverside As the mists of morning Caress the redwood trees That color the mountains On their summit, a shade of ice Day by day i walked these frosted roads Soaking in the winter rain With pools frozen in ice

Lyrics: (:38) It was 10 years ago When you held my sanity As the one who I talked to Amidst the madness and grief Your words comforted me While I suffered the pain of loss At a time I questioned my own identity Your unmistakable beauty That haunts my memories (chorus1) Yet as I visit the paradise Where our ashen memories lay to rest The smoke masks the redwood scent I am unable to reminisce anymore (1:18) Through the woods we ventured You enlightened me with nonsense Yet we both laughed in ridiculous enjoyment You were there to fulfill the romantic dream I was captivated by the paint that left your fingertips Your unmistakable beauty That haunts my memories (chorus1) Yet as I visit the paradise Where our ashen memories lay to rest The smoke masks the redwood scent I am unable to reminisce anymore Yet as I visit the paradise Where our ashen memories lay to rest The place where I once confessed Caged in blind renovations of the years (3:10) (chorus 2) Despite being miles away Beyond the continent and the atlantic It is as if you were here with me I felt that warmth of your creative words A guiding light through the unknowns of life For I would have ventured into the darkness in fear (x2) (4:13) The reality of broken dreams manifest As we tread through the twists of events Coming to the painful conclusion That we deny with our own hearts Contrary to the institutional dogma That ensnared our young minds with commercial means thus we were left with broken dreams And wretched souls (4:35) But with you, these voices drowned in noise For when I felt your hand… But with you, these voices drowned in noise I harbored courage to carry on (5:00) Witnessing the sunset as we always did On this wooden bench over looking the Pacific As the canyon of redwood trees Lead a path of water, gated by the wild meadows of oaten grass and California flowers (5:26) The sun which you still worship Sets in orange hues which shine through the overcast Just as it does now with the smoke As the fires burn ever so closely To this forsaken place of memories Xxxx Alive in the past Dead in the present As the clock moves forward Leaving me behind, in this liminal threshold You drifted far away from me For we were never meant to be For I never deserved such happiness I endured years of solitude and torment Only haunted by ghosts of deception The shadows always lurked in the corners forced to venture into the darkness alone Where the sanity which you once kept for me withering away into forsaken memory Screaming at the painted faces of these walls Yet the cocoon of madness remains silent There are many moments where I forget Yet I am unable to move forward My sight, tainted by the image of perfection I have lost trust in myself Beyond the threshold of insanity Ideals imprinted into this self falters This counterfeit identity has been extinguished Replaced by an acceptance of the inevitable madness Yearning for its acceleration Unwilling to compromise Unshackled by the chains of morality Turning away from the ideals of justice The flames that haunt our garden Now burn into my soul I now forge a new identity One which all will submit in fear Throwing away what was instilled in us To you, I am now just another stranger To me, you are just an old valentine All I feel now is a sense of nostalgia The wilted grass of these dull fields And the ashen clouds that fall An embodiment of those moments Forsaken for so many years ago The wilted grass of these dull fields And the ashen clouds that fall An embodiment of those moments Forsaken for so many years ago Lost in these woods As death lingers closer To truly revisit this place once more Lost but never forgotten I will be the last To look away For the last time Giving a hidden chapter its closure For all the promises that were broken For all the hatred nurtured in my heart For all the regrets during these years For all the sins I will commit (final chorus) Now, I visit as a stranger You are a ghost that haunts these hills Only the eyes of strangers meet mine And the cold redwood scent purifies no more This world is no longer mine Only faint hints of once used routes And the towering pillars of pine On the slopes of the dried ravine Rest as remnants of this world Yet the sun oppresses in an orange hue On the shadows of these forgotten woods Forsaken for so many bittersweet years This is my final letter of nostalgia, my valentine

Finally, returning once again To this neglected oasis Far away from where I call home Where the desert sands meet the seas The wooden trunks of oak And the coastal bushes Intertwine in this hidden cove Where the frontier and suburbia interface (chorus) Once again, I can watch the Sun fall It’s oppressive orange Submits to the winter night Sinking into the infinite oceans Seeking to find what I have lost Behind these iron gates The forgotten deserted origin For the mythical spark of hope Despite this strange new land I reconnected with the world Beyond this fabricated prison And the entities that manipulate (chorus) I will forever hold these dear moments Despite the hatred That dominates the mind I will never forget For a mentor in spirit Has reassured the existence Of the iridescent flame That still burns within the soul Once again, I can watch the Sun fall It’s oppressive orange Submits to the cold winter night This image will forever be burned A page in this chapter of painful memories

One of many perpetrators In atomized subsistence Isolated by asphalt barriers Tormented by his peers And the brainwashing Of sex filled consumerism Reaching out for help His pleas fall on deaf ears And the shadows Groom him as a tool (chorus 1) On that fateful day The threshold of sanity breaks For what remains is the hopeless corpses Of broken children Grief reigns for a moment Yet the populous returns sedated For this day is just one of many tragedies Yet to come Within each manifesto the influence Of the echo chamber Amplifies its signature Carved into the manufactured Opinions, reiterated Through the false pretense Of a voice to be heard Yet those who reach out For a saving grace Their silent cries Remain unnoticed Ideals of kindness The false pretense of morality Mask the true desires Of temporal fame (chorus 2) The tragedies and many yet to come Will be televised propaganda Displayed in short form video To relinquish the little semblance of power In the name of a manufactured common good And the false pretense of comfort In due time, the threshold of madness will break, while all eyes are glued to their screens, Unable to escape the advertisements of self righteousness Which robs its viewers of identity As their thoughts are manipulated By the suggestions of an artificial algorithm In the guise of a salvaged human connection What was meant to connect Became a means to isolate For compassion is meaningless in solitude But misery and hatred are nurtured In ultimate form, a televised tragedy Stars and stripes tainted in blood (solo) his life is treated as meaningless Only valued for material consumption Forced into the doctrine of morality Yet his pleas are met with silent apathy He crosses the threshold between desperation and retribution, The only atonement Of one of the many sins A natural conclusion For the negligent treatment of human experience Collapse has been set in motion The inevitable will accelerate (chorus 1): On that fateful day The threshold of sanity breaks For what remains is the hopeless corpses Of broken children Grief reigns for a moment Yet the populous returns sedated For this day is just one of many tragedies Yet to come In due time, the threshold of madness will break, while all eyes are glued to their screens, Unable to escape the advertisements of self righteousness On that fateful day The threshold of sanity breaks For what remains is the hopeless corpses Of broken children Grief reigns for a moment Yet the populous returns sedated For this day is just one of many tragedies Yet to come In a world where identity is counterfeit Where individual thought is no longer genuine The experience of life is questioned the answer of death no longer holds weight But there is still fear for the impending Destruction set forth by ruthless bloodshed *simultaneously* In due time, the threshold of madness will break, while all eyes are glued to their screens, Unable to escape the advertisements of self righteousness The fear of the collapse, the true element in this manufactured world Hatred shines in the darkness of hypocritical compassion Sadness, sedated en masse, living in a state of denial Lying to one’s self Never questioning the counterfeit life Modernity has failed civilization And both will die on its own sword Suburbia, a contained prison Of walls made of asphalt Forbidding human interaction Destroying an integral part of life Unable to ask for help The pain of suffering accumulates Until sadness turns into hatred And hatred turns into an act of tragedy Befitting for an apathetic society Where the value of life is a deception To elevate one’s own feeling Of self importance (final verse) The fear of the collapse, the true element in this manufactured world Hatred shines in the darkness of hypocritical compassion Sadness, sedated en masse, living in a state of denial In a world where identity is counterfeit Where individual thought is no longer genuine The experience of life is questioned But there is still fear for the impending Destruction set forth by ruthless bloodshed

Wilted rose Dying to the poisoned winds The sour rain washes down Your wilted leaves I once felt The soft touch of your hand Yet this now is just A broken memory The soil riddled In needles used for drugs Piss and filth blend with the roots Just as your thoughts Have been manipulated By the algorithm I miss the day When you looked into me Like you were pleading For your salvation From the nightmares Of your past Living alone in this Punishment we call modernity (2x) Yet you abandoned me Lost to wander alone In an act of betrayal To the yearning of your eyes With a broken smile To the yearning of your eyes (Chorus) You were never destined To be my beloved darling For you were not there with me When the darkness beckoned me As I descended into madness For I thought you gave me strength You were never destined To be my beloved darling For you were never there with me To tread this path of treachery You were chained by the indoctrinated framework By the powers you pretend to question A thousand times I have climbed this broken path Ascending to the edge Where the river begins its downpour A monument, all but worshipped Throughout forgotten legends Which faded away, like my dreams Waking up to this prison Of plastic walls Where advertisements molest the mind And genuine thought There you laid on our bed Eyes fixed on a thousand pictures Forced to react in a precise manner Unable to break that forlorn gaze But somehow, your eyes met mine Once again, you silently plead As we held hands, drenched in pleasure Determined to make it last forever As timeless as it felt These hours drifted away to the past Forced to be forsaken In the name of deception For the lies you forced upon me Was your own delusion A means to cope With the fact that you Were never good enough for me For I was never special Just a supplement in your pitiful attempt To find some meaning in your life Where the stories of fantasy Embedded in social construct Becomes the standard Which you held me against Now you succumb to depression As reality collapses around you Now it is your turn To drown in the same madness While you assimilate Into this counterfeit identity I have ascended beyond this prison Beyond the painted blue sky In these lucid dreams I have witnessed the vast Expanse of a strange new world Never to return (chorus) You were never destined To be my beloved darling For you were not there with me When the darkness beckoned me As I descended into madness For I thought you gave me strength You were never destined To be my beloved darling you were never there with me To tread this path of treachery You were chained to the indoctrinated framework By the powers that be you have abandoned me Lost to wander alone In an act of betrayal To the yearning of your eyes

As the years go by more land is ravaged Paving way to the foundations Of modern society The ancient trees rooted And the rivers drained of water Starving the native fauna Browning the once green grass Setting itself up for collapse Through devastation It perpetuates its growth Accelerating the spread Of an asphalt maze And the fabricated homes The foundation of suburbia Chorus1: This everchanging landscape That was once my paradise Has evolved into a plastic prison As my life Drifts into Yesterday (Solo1) I remember the time When we could all connect Before we were forced Into the coporate machinery That changed us all As the advertisements altered our very nature Into something unrecognizable now we are just strangers Who once shared a forgotten past A footnote in a vandalized canvas Artifically painted in a few words These forgotten memories That once defined my humanity Has been rendered invalid In this context of modernity Chorus 2: My existence, now meaningless The only constant, held true is this madness For this present lie will also fade to memory Throughout these grayscale years I still listen to the old melodies Still embraced by those Who are enamored by nostalgia This everchanging landscape That was once my paradise Has evolved into a plastic prison As my life Drifts into Yesterday My existence, now meaningless The only constant, held true is this madness For this present lie will also fade to memory